So much I want to write.. but just cant get out. When im in the flat I just want to write on here and let it all out but I cant, n then when I get here... nothing...

I'll try.

Spending more time on my own.. my friends have new friends and I cant be round too many people so what choice do I have. No one gives a fuck about me anymore.. but in a way its good.. they dont notice if im around or not when im alive.. wont make much difference if im dead right?.
In the past 3 days ive nearly overdosed twice, I was so close to hanging myself... n the lame reason I didnt was cuz I couldnt reach the thing I was gonna do it from. Ive been cutting everyday n not just once or twice, my arm is coverd. I used to be bothered about it and hate my scars but now I dont give a fuck. All I want is to die. Let me.

Thats, all I can get out. Im sorry.
 

And I wonder how long it'll take them, To notice that i'm gone.

i havent used this in a long time... i may start again, I dont know.. I mainly use my other one but seeing as i cant escape anywhere anymore it might have to come back to this one.